Wanted: Friends

Well, ok, I have friends, but you all are out there and I don’t know anybody who lives nearby. I’m feeling extremely lonely right now. I miss my friends from where we used to live in mid-Illinois. I miss my friends from St Louis. I’m really missing my sister a lot. I haven’t really seen her much since Christmas when we were at her house. I had looked forward so much to seeing her at the family reunion back in June, but those spots on my kids prevented that back then. I saw her for about half an hour at Grandpa’s house before they had to get on their way. I was thinking that we might see her for a small time this next month because Jeremy and I had planned on going to St Louis for our anniversary, but we won’t be able to do that now. I was also hoping to be able to go down there in September after the baby is born to help her out a little and to see my new little nephew, but we just can’t afford it.

What I really need is a time to sit with some friends somewhere and talk a bit. Then, put all of it away from me and just have a crazy de-stressing time. It’s not coming soon. I just don’t really connect with anyone up here. I have some good neighbors and people I know at church, but it’s not the same.

Today, I’m just sad and feeling worn-out and like a failure at everything. What is my purpose up here? Where do I fit in? What is my ministry?

I’m not sure this post will stay up. I just had to get it out. It may get pulled after a bit.

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Mom to 5 children, born between 1997 and 2003. I enjoy reading books, blogs, and e-mail. I collect instruments and want to learn how to play a good variety of them. I love singing, especially with my children.

One thought on “Wanted: Friends”

  1. Oh how I can identify! Moving to a new place is always such a lonely time for me too. I’m like you, I have lots of people I know from work, church, the neighborhood, etc…, but there are only a very few friends that I have that I can actually sit down and just have a good talk with. It takes me a while to connect with people like that too. We’ve lived up here five years now, and it’s only been the last couple of years that I’ve actually been able to connect with people like that. The women I do know are just as busy as I am, so I feel kind of bad calling them up and asking them to take time out of their busy days to sit down and have a cup of coffee or go shopping together or whatever. Sometimes, I would just love to have a female friend who lived close by to go shopping or go to the movies with. I used to do that a lot with my mom and my sister when I lived closer to them. I do get together with people I know in St. Louis occasionally, but we live far enough away that I don’t feel like I can just call them up and get together any time.
    I thought about you the other day when I was listening to Focus On The Family, and they had a woman on there talking about how moving affects women and how she has a ministry built completely on reaching out to women who have had to go through a move and basically feel like they have been transplanted to a different world. It was great to hear that there is a ministry out there like this, because I know how alone and disconnected I have felt when we have moved to new places, and I have always wondered if I am the only one who feels this way. She actually talked about how you go through a grieving period when you move, and I could really identify with that.
    Hang in there. YOU’RE NOT ALONE. Lean on God and ask Him to show you His purpose for you in this new place. He does have one for you–even though it may not seem like it right now.
    If you ever need to talk, you are more than welcome to call me or e-mail me just to vent a little. I’m praying for you.

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